Saturday, 21 October 2017

It's Sunday and I'm off to work. So I just wanted to share a few pictures that I took this week. Enjoy.

Saturday, 14 October 2017


Today I was thinking about children, just not my own. Back in 2010 when I was living in Tidworth I was working in a shop. Every shift I worked was lone working so I was always vigilant of groups of young people coming in and slipping a few items into their pockets. There were two young brothers who used to come into the shop I had seen them steal a few times but they would never go for the most expensive chocolate bars, usually it was a freddo or something small that I assume they thought would be easier to take. One time when I saw the older of the two slip a chocolate bar into his pocket I asked him if he was going to pay for it? They both put back their loot and said sorry. Every day these boys would come to the shop so I started to get to know them as they knew they couldn't steal when I was working.

At first I never really took much notice of them but them I started to realise that they were in need of some TLC. They were both primary school age and would often be hanging around until 9 at night. The boys became a little part of my life I would buy them some sweets and a drink and some nights I would cook for them at my flat. They told me about their home life which wasn't the best but for them it was normal. It pained me to see such cleaver young boys having to live like that, so I did what little I could for them. I don't know what made me think of the boys but it made me really appreciate what I could give my children.

My children may not be go on holiday every year or have expensive clothes and toys but they have the basics they need. The life the boys were being brought up in they didn't have all the basic needs,l food, water and clothing and importantly knowing that someone cared and loved them. It make me sad to think that there are so many children out there living like this. I would love to go back and see how the boys are but I doubt they would remember me and as I never knew where they lived it would be tricky.

I guess I'm writing this as I just wanted to get this out more for my own sake then for anyone else's benefit. If by any chance the boys came across this I would want them to know that I do still think about them and hope that their lives are better for them. My children are my everything and I would do anything to make sure they are happy and healthy, this is my only hope for all children really. Children don't need iPads and thousands of pounds spent on them they just need love and to feel wanted.

Friday, 6 October 2017

Blogtober: Flowers

Today's prompt for Blogtober17 is flowers. I was think of using a previous review then I remembered, today marks 17 years since I lost my Nan.

It got me thinking about how many people sent flowers to show their condolences. The usually flowers are Lillies. Many other flowers are given such as carnations and gladioli. The reason we give flowers is a symbol to show understanding of the grief, pain and to show support. I can't remember what flowers I chose for my Nan but we do still have every single flower card that came along with the flowers. My Nan's favourite flower was the sweetpea, a flower that is declining in population.

The last time I received flowers was a while ago. I had had a really crap day the kids were driving me crazy and I just felt so down. Liam came home with a bunch of flowers to cheer me up, the flowers didn't cheer me up it was the symbol/meaning behind him getting me them that did. I suppose flowers are a way of us communicating our emotions when we're unsure of what to say or do but we just want to show we care.

If you get a few minutes have a read of my review on this online florist who we always use when we want to send flowers to friends and family Prestige flowers.

Monday, 2 October 2017

Blogtober: Babies

The 9th-15th of October is baby loss awareness week. Below I have shared in brief about my losses before having my two children. I had always wanted children and had always thought it was a simple process. After two late miscarriages one miscarriage at 8 weeks a 12 week premature baby and having to have my daughter sewn in I have changed my views. Pregnancy is hard and God damn scary.

I'm a mum of 4 children, sadly two of them never got to walk this earth. I was 18 when I had my first pregnancy, I found out when I was around 12 weeks. I remember feeling scared but excited when I was 18 weeks pregnant I woke up late one morning and when I went to the toilet there was blood and a lot of it, I haemorrhaged and was rushed to hospital. I had to be induced to give birth to my son, Anthony-Lee. Soon after I was taken for emergency surgery as I had a retained placenta and started heavily bleeding, narrowly missed having a transfusion. I was heart broken and instantly hated every pregnant woman including one of my best friends who I couldn't even speak to.

Just under a year later I became pregnant again. This time I was more scared but I followed all the rules and advice. During a walk to the shop one night to buy something to satisfy my craving my waters broke, I was 17 weeks. The feeling of dread washed over me and I felt sick. I was taken to hospital, scanned and monitored to see if my waters would build back up. I Googled everything looking for any kind of hope. I was told there was nothing they could do and to let them know when I was ready to be induced. I couldn't believe I was losing my baby, again. I had only felt my baby moving hours before. I was again induced and had another beautiful baby boy, Leon.

Sunday, 1 October 2017

Blogtober: All About Me

During this month I'm taking part in Blogtober along with many other bloggers. Today's post is all about me and I thought the best approach to this subject was a good question and answer post.

Name: Jade Leanne Bremner

Age: 27

Married?!: I'm engaged to my amazing yet annoying fiancé Liam.

Children: I have 4 but two were too good to walk this earth and they grew wings too soon.

Pepsi or Coke: See the thing is I like both I like Pepsi max though not regular Pepsi.

Sweet or salted?: Sweet but I prefer toffee.

Favourite season: I love winter. My reason for this is I like that I'm not on edge about bugs, I can have hearty dinners like a stew. Also in summer I can only take so many layers off but in winter I can pile them on and off.

Favourite colour: This changes depending on my mood so right now I'd say purple.

Favourite film: I love horror films, I really love Texas Chainsaw Massacre.

Do you read?: I haven't read much lately but I do really enjoy reading. Karin Slaughter I would say is one of my favourite authors and I still have some of her books to get through.

What's your earliest memory?: OK so I was really really young maybe about 3 so it's crazy that I actually remember but I do and my mum confirms this actually happened. We were living in temporary housing, crappy flats full of drug users. One day I was in the hallway and this guy starts looking through the letterbox asking me topped the door. I didn't open the door but it's something I will always remember we never found out who the person was.

Favourite holiday: I haven't been on holiday many times. My favourite would be back in 2000 when my Nan took me on holiday in Weymouth and she nominated me to win an award which I did win and I got a Tiger Club badge.

First ever date: My first ever date was actually with my fiancé. I won't say it's the best date but hey something worked as six years and two kids later. We went on a 2-4-1 cinema trip where Liam told me we couldn't watch the film he said we were watching as he hates horror films we ended up watching some robot fighting rubbish. We had a McDonald's before I drove him to his local pub he offered to buy me a drink (coke as I was driving) he then had to borrow money off me.

So there you have it a few questions about me. I could of wrote a paragraph or two but I'm not great at writing about myself and this seemed more fun.